Traitor

First, you panic. Because you know that you're entirely out of something that you need very badly to be a part of. Though it is not a necessity, if you knew what was going on, you would probably feel very upset, and thus you feel upset because you know there is no doubt that this thing is happening. The general 'you' by the way.

Next, you relax, because you assume that this has already been existed before you thought of it, and nothing inside of your realm has gone awful yet. In fact, it's been pretty sweet so far and recently. So obviously, what ever this whatever you don't know is, hasn't been huge competition yet.

Then, you get a pang of guilt, because you do, and are off to go shower so you can do, the same thing. You're no better than him, because he's no better than you even though you don't know exactly what it is he's doing. We're all traitors at heart and there's nothing wrong with that. It's the way we are, so the guilt can slip away as you realize you are both 'hurting' each other. Notice the quotes.

But if he's doing something and you're doing something, then who is there to be hurt? Plus, the 'thing' you're about to go do, is probably being traitor to some other person being traitor herself, until we wind up with some broken hearted angel tonight. But we'll never know who that will be. So finally we are okay. Finally we can be at peace, because finally we realize. We're all traitors at heart. Let's have fun.