Reflection

In my darkest moment

Could have done better.

To make me feel safer-

What they all tell me

Know its not true.

Don’t make me feel safer.

Could have thought longer

Prayed more

Loved more

Deep smudge settles in my heart

Wondering

Asking

What did I ever do wrong?

What did I ever say wrong?

Why am I so lost?

I want to be out with everything

But I’m so afraid

I want to believe

But my inner thoughts drive me otherwise

I find myself unsure

What I know and don’t know

These days

Interpreting every breath

Embracing every smile

Is it my fault?